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The Fighter
The silence stretches so far between us
The air is still, no, oh, there’s nothing left to discuss
I’ve given you my all
My love, my tears, everything, large and small
I’ve given and given
And received so little in return, but because it was you, I’ve forgiven
I used to be sorry
I thought it was my fault our life wasn’t starry
I would lay awake
Ignoring the ache, trying to salvage this break
I tried and tried
And every time it happened again, little by little, I died
And, despite it all, I had faith, not in you, but myself
That if I tried, I could fix me, fix us, and it would all resolve itself
I used to feel
Empathy, anger, sadness, jubilance, it was all real
But now, an emptiness stretches inside of me
Resignation, a barren wasteland, an endless sea
Where no flowers bloom or fish swim
Where every once in a while laughter will skim
And then in an instant be gone
Giving a taste, then cruelly taking it away, like a beautiful dream foregone
I used to be a fighter
I wrote my own destiny, I was my own scriptwriter
I’d hold onto dreams, so tight, I’d never let go
Now, my grasp is so weak, along with dreams, hope slips right through
I could stare down any fear, I’d look it straight in the eye
Now, I can’t even lift my head up high
I stare at myself in the mirror, and I can’t recognize
Who is this stranger with bags, and frowns, and sadness etched in the eyes
I lean a little closer, oh, it’s me
I guess, to a degree
I stare a little longer, no its not, this stranger is not me
I used to be a fighter, no, this weakling is not me
Now, staring at some devastated version of myself
I realize my heart is so cold, isolated by an ice shelf
When did it become this way
Sometime between the unhappy Friday’s and lonely birthdays
I lost that fighter
I lost that scriptwriter
So I decide, I’m going to fight again
This time it won’t be in vain
Because I’m going to fight, not for us, but for me
To once again be
The fighter, the scriptwriter,
To relinquish the weight of the world on my shoulders, to walk a bit lighter
To thaw the iciness around my heart
Even if we have to depart
To recognize the image in the mirror
To see myself unencumbered by bags, and eyes, and sadness, to see myself a bit clearer
To hold my head up high,
Stare down fear straight in the eye
To dream
And see them gleam
To laugh and laugh and laugh
And laugh
To feel something besides this apathy
Jubilance, anger, sadness, human empathy
To be an endless sea
Of warmth, sunlight, and life, to be
To reignite the fire inside my soul
To be alive, to be whole
To forgive myself
For the errors we both committed against ourselves
To be the fighter
The scriptwriter
The silence stretches so far between us
I can’t crawl, walk, run, swim, or fly to cover this infinite distance, and thus
I can’t give you my all anymore
I can’t give you what you ask for
Because now, it’s time for me
To be
A fighter
A scriptwriter
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