I covered my face with thick happiness

I acted fine with great joy

I fake myself by being pretty

I covered, acted and faked

Keep trying and trying and trying

But in the end

I will always turn back to find you

I will always pause and cry

I will always stand back in fear

I would again, cry alone of being lonely

There's no happy ending without sadness

But there's no ending to my story

There's no justice before sadness

But when is after for me?

Rain will fall before the sun shines

But when will this rain stop?

I kept on guessing 

And was always wrong

My time's ticking

Slowing down

Telling me to stop 

Stop hoping

Stop dreaming

I was born with it 

I was born for it

I was born to be it

I was it

I am it

I'm sadness