I beg you to understand

I know I have no right to be angry

I love you you love me

we are a happy family

but no

not 

happy

I want to know what you did to make me feel like the darkest star in a universe of your creation

where you are the sun I want nothing more than to steal energy and light from

I victimize me

so I'm angry at me

you made me do that

so I'm angry at you

I'm selfish

so I'm angry at me

I'm helpless

so I'm angry at you

But you, sister, are supposed to be my life's blood when I have run dry

and my life's love when I can't provide any

you broke the unspoken, unwritten pact

that's crazy

so I'm angry at me

but its also real

so I'm angry at you

I love you you love me

but I'm shivering

and I think you have a sun you're hiding