Self-Portrait at Seventeen This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

I inhale,
suck in my gut,
then turn toward
the dirty mirror of
my vanity.
The maroon
shift dress pulls tight
across my breasts
and hips.

I tug
at its seams and
smooth its wrinkles.
Still holding my
breath, I study
my figure.
Hour glass,
I assure myself.

I exhale,
and my body reclaims
its natural shape.
My ample stomach evades
the thin material
of the dress. The fabric
no longer conceals
my pillowy figure.

I stare
at my reflection
for much too long.
Remorse surges
through me. I am no
Marilyn Monroe
or Brigitte Bardot.
The glass has broken;
the sand has spilt.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.






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ambivalentThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jun. 4, 2016 at 8:44 pm
my eyes are watering
 
StormDancer said...
Apr. 15, 2016 at 1:15 pm
This is a beautiful and true piece of writing. I have struggled with an eating disorder for a long time. I've been cleared as healthy now and I believe that I am. It took a lot of work to get where I am today and I will have to work for the rest of my life to be healthy. But it's worth it to feel the joy of life without the nagging insecurity of your appearance invading every happy moment. I hope that you have or will reach a similar point because you are beautiful, I can see you through your w... (more »)
 
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