Red ink dripping

Clear fluid slipping

Knees to chest

Head bowed down

How does it feel to be happy?

How does it feel to be loved?

Only her pillow knew the sleepless nights

Only her body knew when the drawings started

The night heard her cries

Darkness saw when the tears dried

Silence knew it had won its battle

Skin covered up

Hair flowing down

Dreams all drowned

Red eyes alert

For anyone who wants to hurt

The already forgotten soul

The already opened hole

Pain she doesn't feel

When the blade touches her 

Skipping another meal

Remembering the unstoppable thoughts

Remembering the many times she fought

Her world seemed to fall apart

Taking with it her heart

Throwing her on the ground

Where she no longer thinks she wil be found

Removing her crown 

Stepping out the throne

For she no longer feels worthy

For her future looks blurry

Over and over in head she said 

How does it feel to be happy?

How does it feel to be loved? 

Soul full of dread