It’s Wednesday & I don’t need you like I used to.
It rained today but it wasn’t sad, I actually thought it was kind of beautiful, the rain hit me & I felt like I belonged to myself again. I could feel your fingerprints leaving my skin-
You were never mine; but Lord knows I was yours. I gave myself to you in every way that I knew how to.
Never again.
I know you’ll be back, but by then I’ll be too strong to let you in-
I don’t want to scream your name anymore at 3 a.m;
But I know there will still be nights that I write about you with shaky hands & aching bones & there will be so much pain I’ll feel it in my teeth-
But lately I’ve been breathing easier so I know those nights will be few & far between;
So for now, I’m going to allow myself to be happy…. without you.
It’s nothing personal but I can’t pour anymore of myself into you, I’m tired of feeling empty.
I gave you butterflies & you gave them to another girl, I’m not mad, I just don’t want them back.
She can keep the stars & the moon & every ounce of love I poured into you.
I don’t want it back.
Because love is not something you give then take away;
For your sake, I hope you learn what love is one day.