The color blue calms me
My first words were blue
It excited but also pacified me

Green led me to question
I first contemplated the universe
When I stared at the green plastic
Of my toy castle
and wondered

Why I did exist
why did anything exist
I felt like I approached the edge of something
probably my consciousness
or my 4-year-old mind

This memory exists within a timeless part of me
It’s significant enough
to be on its own
I’ve never shared it before
at least not written about it

The green of that plastic
so synthetic and vibrant
It tore apart the universe.
The contrast of gray and green
set me off
and sent me into a state of wonder
contemplating
I’m meditating
Maybe this was the first time I’ve meditated

I feel like my mind is at rest
but also everywhere
eyes are lifting my mind.