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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.




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yomamma said...
Dec. 22, 2010 at 8:28 am:
wow....thats intense. keep writing though.your good man....your good.
 
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aphilly said...
Dec. 4, 2010 at 3:46 pm:
This is amazing. I like your style. Keep writing!
 
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fadingaway1324 said...
Dec. 4, 2010 at 12:01 pm:
I am real confused but i liked it none the less
 
silentvocal replied...
Dec. 4, 2010 at 10:28 pm :
im a lil confused too but i get the gist, and its in a way that ur supposed to be u know? where u cant help but keep reading it to understand it a little more each time-i love it when writing urges you to to that keep it going.
 
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SilentwingsTears said...
Nov. 12, 2010 at 8:21 pm:
This is amazing. I get the feeling. O_O and I rarely do. O_O Keep it up!
 
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antmlover said...
Nov. 12, 2010 at 5:19 pm:
i dont get it?
 
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Rell23 said...
Nov. 12, 2010 at 11:20 am:
Very well said excellent poem.
 
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summerqdp said...
Nov. 12, 2010 at 10:30 am:

WOW I am so very very impressed with your ability to write.

My favorite part was this:

Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.

 

Bravo.

One of the best I've read.

 
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running4chance This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Nov. 12, 2010 at 7:07 am:
i'm not kidding when this ended i had tears sliding down my cheeks. it just means so many different things but all of them lead up to the ending 8)
 
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silentvocal said...
Nov. 12, 2010 at 1:08 am:
the way it just opens you up and lets memories of your own flow out and just be sucked up and into this passage. It let's you completely link reality to it, it's so real, the mild description is like so incredible how it lets you fill in, leaveing no holes in the piece-you can totally feel that embarassing guilty burn. wow. dude thats awsome.
 
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xmeghanbearx said...
Nov. 12, 2010 at 12:18 am:

Wow. This is really great. You are truly talented.

 

 
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WhiteShadows said...
Oct. 21, 2010 at 7:33 pm:
really awesome 
 
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machadosays said...
Oct. 21, 2010 at 7:21 pm:
i LOVE this.
 
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FOXXforLIFE said...
Oct. 21, 2010 at 4:32 pm:
i loved it
 
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havingfunwriting said...
Oct. 21, 2010 at 4:15 pm:
 is this a beautiful peice of work. thats all i have to say. good job!
 
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Nicole93 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Oct. 21, 2010 at 1:48 pm:
At first when I read this I was confused of what it meant, but thinking about it more made me understand and its truly beautiful. I like that it was hard at first to comprehend because it really makes you think about it more and get more in depth. Great job, keep it up:))
 
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jasmine101 said...
Oct. 21, 2010 at 11:52 am:

i love it

its my favorit type

plz take a look on my worck i beg u i need ppl to comment so i can do better nxt time

 

 
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wefellinLAVA said...
Oct. 21, 2010 at 1:06 am:
No word of a lie, I am in love with this.
 
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abigail_e said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 8:50 pm:
"My journal, I have never felt so alone..." I love this piece!
 
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TutorWhoSchooledU said...
Sept. 29, 2010 at 5:04 pm:
This poem is gripping and mysterious. I LOVE IT! 
 
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