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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”

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soldtosatanThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
today at 3:54 pm:
Wow...i dont even know what to say that was amazing.. cant wait to read more
 
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lovely_bones said...
Jan. 18, 2013 at 1:53 pm:
i love your poem it was so bueatiful to  me like i have never read something like this that makes me feel excited your a good poet
 
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sadesdd said...
Dec. 31, 2012 at 3:17 pm:
I love the last line because the emotional part of it just gets to you.
 
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sunnyandsugarThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Oct. 16, 2012 at 3:19 pm:
That was really emotional, and good chice of woords,keep it up!
 
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ctowle said...
Jul. 20, 2012 at 7:14 pm:
wow! i got goosebumps this is magnificant great choice in words.
 
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KrystalT said...
Apr. 15, 2012 at 12:01 pm:
I have been in that exact same situation before.
 
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jeseerThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 1, 2012 at 1:32 pm:
Wow. That was great!
 
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navien said...
Jan. 26, 2012 at 10:07 pm:
well this was just lovely :)
 
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Sammy817 said...
Jan. 26, 2012 at 2:49 pm:
Amazing!!!!! :)
 
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Esraa said...
Jan. 4, 2012 at 12:39 pm:
its very emotional nd deep thoughts in it
 
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poet.lover said...
Jan. 4, 2012 at 9:38 am:
it's amzing how you connected the beginning of this poem to the end of it and how you achieved that with such deep emotions. i wonder what caused this poem to come about...and also, who's journal it was. but this poem reaches such deep emotions and i really love it! please, look at some of my work, thanks :)
 
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WaffleManThing said...
Dec. 13, 2011 at 8:42 pm:
i woved it, btu i will forever wonder what was it that he read from her journal of the previous night?
 
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JLNJLN said...
Dec. 13, 2011 at 5:39 am:
This is the epitome of beauty. It is awe-inspiring. I literally heard myself spill the world, "wow," from my mouth upon my completion of reading this. Please, give me more.
 
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sarawho382 said...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 11:02 pm:
i really like this one! keep it up all your work is amazing :)
 
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autumn8 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 9:46 pm:
This a really amazing poem..I love the way you tell the story because its not exactly straight forward, its kind of goes backwards like a memory does. 
 
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Fia-fia said...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 5:15 pm:

wonderful! I dont completely understand this, but that is part of the fun of poetry. Thank you

:)

 
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LivingMYLife said...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 4:58 pm:
magical...
 
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kairi.kaylyn said...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 12:51 pm:
Wonderful Poem. I thought it was beautiful.
 
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makaylaaarianna said...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 9:15 am:
Great poem. Check out mine !
 
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Zoe F. said...
Nov. 21, 2011 at 6:22 am:
A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!! Such talent and emotion, you are one great poet! x
 
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