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Knowing Nothing of This ’Til Then MAG

January 28, 2009
By Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”



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on Jan. 17 2011 at 4:40 pm
YoungsurvivorLiz SILVER, San Jose, California
5 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
"A bend in the road is not the end of the road- unless you fail to make the turn"

I had to read it twice, to understand it. This is exellente!!! Incredibly touching. Your are a great writer. 

on Jan. 17 2011 at 2:38 pm
theMidnightSonnet BRONZE, Colton, California
4 articles 2 photos 15 comments

Favorite Quote:
"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot
The world forgetting by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd"

Holy... this is spectacular. Intense and mesmerizing. You have a talent.

yomamma said...
on Dec. 22 2010 at 8:28 am
yomamma, Connetquot, New York
0 articles 0 photos 6 comments

Favorite Quote:
"JEALOUSY,THAT DRAGON WHICH SLAYS LOVE,WHILE PRETENDING TO KEEP IT ALIVE."

"Invisibility is not a super power,but a disease of those who go unnoticed."

wow....thats intense. keep writing though.your good man....your good.

on Dec. 4 2010 at 10:28 pm
silentvocal SILVER, Chicago, Illinois
5 articles 0 photos 44 comments

Favorite Quote:
Don't try to fix what isn't broken

im a lil confused too but i get the gist, and its in a way that ur supposed to be u know? where u cant help but keep reading it to understand it a little more each time-i love it when writing urges you to to that keep it going.

on Dec. 4 2010 at 3:46 pm
aphilly DIAMOND, St. Paul Park, Minnesota
63 articles 0 photos 21 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Have you ever once in your life reached out to touch infinity?" -Ellen Hopkins

This is amazing. I like your style. Keep writing!

on Dec. 4 2010 at 12:01 pm
fadingaway1324 SILVER, Latrobe, Pennsylvania
7 articles 4 photos 24 comments
I am real confused but i liked it none the less

on Nov. 12 2010 at 8:21 pm
fyreflies BRONZE, Randolph, Wisconsin
4 articles 0 photos 47 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." Doctor Suess
"Oh, of course it doesn't hurt to slide in softball." (before I tore up both knees and before I slapped that person)
"Stay with me here now/And never surrender" Skillet

This is amazing. I get the feeling. O_O and I rarely do. O_O Keep it up!

antmlover said...
on Nov. 12 2010 at 5:19 pm
i dont get it?

Rell23 said...
on Nov. 12 2010 at 11:20 am
Rell23, Cleveland, Ohio
0 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
One fish two fish red fish blue fish etc.........................
-Don't Be a Menace

Very well said excellent poem.

summerqdp GOLD said...
on Nov. 12 2010 at 10:31 am
summerqdp GOLD, Dana Point, California
10 articles 12 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
"A friend in need is a friend indeed, a friend with weed is better."
"Then he put on forty-two and a half tabs of brown acid that he still had from his Woodstock days. She saw all kinds of colors. Lemon yellow, orange orange, cherry red, kaleidoscope eyes. The world was on fire."

ahahahaa this person is just trying to get people mad. Ignore it. aha

summerqdp GOLD said...
on Nov. 12 2010 at 10:30 am
summerqdp GOLD, Dana Point, California
10 articles 12 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
"A friend in need is a friend indeed, a friend with weed is better."
"Then he put on forty-two and a half tabs of brown acid that he still had from his Woodstock days. She saw all kinds of colors. Lemon yellow, orange orange, cherry red, kaleidoscope eyes. The world was on fire."

WOW I am so very very impressed with your ability to write.

My favorite part was this:

Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.

 

Bravo.

One of the best I've read.


on Nov. 12 2010 at 7:07 am
TheAurorasFall PLATINUM, Dover, Pennsylvania
29 articles 0 photos 30 comments

Favorite Quote:
life isn't about the number of moments you take to breathe, but about the number of moments that take your breathe away.

i'm not kidding when this ended i had tears sliding down my cheeks. it just means so many different things but all of them lead up to the ending 8)

silentvocal said...
on Nov. 12 2010 at 1:08 am
the way it just opens you up and lets memories of your own flow out and just be sucked up and into this passage. It let's you completely link reality to it, it's so real, the mild description is like so incredible how it lets you fill in, leaveing no holes in the piece-you can totally feel that embarassing guilty burn. wow. dude thats awsome.

on Nov. 12 2010 at 12:18 am
xmeghanbearx BRONZE, Los Gatos, California
4 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
"By being yourself, you brought something new into the world" -unkown

Wow. This is really great. You are truly talented.

 


WhiteShadows said...
on Oct. 21 2010 at 7:33 pm
WhiteShadows, Ocala, Florida
0 articles 0 photos 38 comments

Favorite Quote:
You've gotta work like you don't need the money/love like you'll never be hurt/
Sing like no one is listening/ and live like it's heaven on Earth.-Anonymous

really awesome 

on Oct. 21 2010 at 7:21 pm
machadosays BRONZE, Carrollton, Texas
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i LOVE this.

FOXXforLIFE said...
on Oct. 21 2010 at 4:32 pm
FOXXforLIFE, El Paso, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
ANSWER ME

i loved it

on Oct. 21 2010 at 4:15 pm
 is this a beautiful peice of work. thats all i have to say. good job!

on Oct. 21 2010 at 1:48 pm
Nicole93 PLATINUM, Mechanicsburg, Pennsylvania
41 articles 0 photos 15 comments

Favorite Quote:
Sometimes the best two people to be together are the last two to realize it.

At first when I read this I was confused of what it meant, but thinking about it more made me understand and its truly beautiful. I like that it was hard at first to comprehend because it really makes you think about it more and get more in depth. Great job, keep it up:))

jasso GOLD said...
on Oct. 21 2010 at 11:52 am
jasso GOLD, Damascus, Other
16 articles 10 photos 68 comments

Favorite Quote:
courge dose not always roar, Sometimes courge is a quiet voice at the end of the day saying : i will try again tomorrow

i love it

its my favorit type

plz take a look on my worck i beg u i need ppl to comment so i can do better nxt time

 



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