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And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

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3Tree3 said...
Nov. 16, 2009 at 3:13 pm
great! this poem makes me think of my cousins whose mother unexpectedly died around Christmas time
dylonmichael said...
Nov. 13, 2009 at 11:05 am
omg this almost made me cry
BaBii_GhErL said...
Nov. 11, 2009 at 4:47 pm
this poem was great...ur a great writer and keep ur head held high because ur good at what u do...reading this reminds me of how my cousins lost their mom who was my aunt...she was a great sure if ur mom was still around she would be a great person too...
dancedreamer101 replied...
Nov. 12, 2009 at 7:08 pm
same thing happened in my family. when I read this my aunt as the first I thought of. =) keep up the writing!
LeilaniLives said...
Nov. 7, 2009 at 1:55 am
You made me cry. Not a single poem I've read in the last few days had made me actually tear. You are beautiful inside and I'm sure outside as well. Keep your head up sweetheart. You're making the world a better place.
DEARtiffanyy said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 10:45 pm
This is just woww.
It sent shivers up my spine.
I'm sorry for your loss. :(
screenname! said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 5:54 pm
This was sad! It makes me remember how lucky I am to have a mother that cares for me this much. I hope I learn to be appreciative after this
legolas_elf said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 4:50 pm
This poem was absolutely amazing. I am lucky enough to still have a loving, caring mother to whom I am super close and I cannot imagine going through a single day without her because we always talk and all of my secrets lie with her. This poem pretty much moved me to tears. Could you please read my poem. It's in free verse poetry and it's called I See about the Jim Crow South.
upsidedownpineapple said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 3:15 pm
this really hit me, i almost cried. my mom also died and i barely remember her
M&M4ever said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 2:44 pm
you put that beautifully ... can can completely relate ... i almost cried
flute_bandie1493 said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 10:39 am
there arnt ever words to describe wat you feel exactly, but good job on the tone and mood of the srry for your loss.....
SunshineGurl+MARK replied...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 1:07 pm
Im sorry about your mom ! Great poem...I never met my mom so I kinda know how you feel ,a little but I will never know how it feels for yo u :(
Nanna said...
Nov. 3, 2009 at 11:50 pm
I'm crying right now. That was so amazing. Awesome work! Please keep more coming. And, if you could check out some of my stuff.
danibaby said...
Oct. 31, 2009 at 1:07 pm
I love this poem. I am at a loss of words to describe this makes me feel.
SarahG said...
Oct. 13, 2009 at 8:27 pm
I love this poem, it reminds me so much of what i want to write but i could never get the words out, i wonder too if my father would of approved of me, if he knew of everything, if he was still alive too. hey, check out my work called 9 Years Ago. if you would. im sorry for you loss.
C@D@ME3 said...
Oct. 13, 2009 at 6:26 pm
Hey i am sorry you lost your mother and I'm sorry that u feel like your mother isn't proud of u. I'm pretty sure where ever your mom is that she is proud of your poem. Congrats.
OreosandSaltines said...
Oct. 13, 2009 at 5:41 pm
Ohh im sorry for your lost beautiful poem .I see what you mean no I regret all that AI say !good job keep writting.
HappilySaddened said...
Oct. 13, 2009 at 2:53 pm
This is a great poem, thats the kind of poetry that every one can relate to and every one can have compassion towards, I love this poem and it is one of the greatest I have ever read. Keep it up and you will go far!!
SilverAngel said...
Oct. 13, 2009 at 10:40 am
No words can describe the wave of emotions I just felt. Amazing. Your mother is proud of you!
PurpleMidnight said...
Oct. 13, 2009 at 8:54 am
I....I don't know what to say. This is one of the best poems I've ever read. Remember, she's still there and she still loves you. :)
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