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And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.

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L@vLL said...
Nov. 26, 2009 at 8:23 am
" very beautiful! ... really liked it.."
Miss_Bliss said...
Nov. 26, 2009 at 8:08 am
This was beautiful to read as a poem, and horrible when I remember that it was your actual experience... So sorry for your loss, and PLEASE keep letting it out through your writing!
chrisbriones said...
Nov. 26, 2009 at 12:24 am
You and I share that in common. in my case, however, the guilt i bear is for my father. its different, my case, but the base pain and..just overwhelming enough.
i hope you may tolerate what you bear better than i can ever hope to.
Kagome said...
Nov. 25, 2009 at 9:35 pm
Oh my god this poem made me regret all the horrible things I do to my mother what I put her through. It made me teary. I don't know what I would do without my mother even though she can be herself I love her very much but I don't think she realizes that I do appreciate her.
Hello,I'm... said...
Nov. 25, 2009 at 8:56 pm
Just let it out Hon...This poem made me feel what you feel, and see what you saw, and let me be a part of your confusion and sadness.
Cady_ said...
Nov. 25, 2009 at 3:18 pm
You know I started crying when i read this.... I am sorry bout your mother... I never complain about my mother as much as i use to, because my friends have lost their mother and i feel bad cause i barely know you but yet I feel bad for you at hte same time... I hope you keep the memories that you have and think of happy times you spentwith her...Five stars>>>
marleighxo6 said...
Nov. 25, 2009 at 1:35 pm
my eyes are tearing up...that was amazing!
i'm sorry about your mother. it must have been really hard.
Summersong said...
Nov. 25, 2009 at 12:00 pm
this ia a very good poem...but it breaks my heart too im sorry about your mother but I know how lucky I am to have a mom she and I are pretty close too but know that God is always with you :)
~God Bless! :)
LittleBritt said...
Nov. 22, 2009 at 4:31 pm
this is gorgeous. painful to read but gorgeous.
JessW. said...
Nov. 16, 2009 at 7:36 pm
this is a beautiful poem. it made me cry. good job. this is truly amazing.
Zero_K This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Nov. 16, 2009 at 4:19 pm
Beautiful. Simply beautiful. Bravo.
-Blessed Be, may your path be bright!
3Tree3 said...
Nov. 16, 2009 at 3:13 pm
great! this poem makes me think of my cousins whose mother unexpectedly died around Christmas time
dylonmichael said...
Nov. 13, 2009 at 11:05 am
omg this almost made me cry
BaBii_GhErL said...
Nov. 11, 2009 at 4:47 pm
this poem was great...ur a great writer and keep ur head held high because ur good at what u do...reading this reminds me of how my cousins lost their mom who was my aunt...she was a great sure if ur mom was still around she would be a great person too...
dancedreamer101 replied...
Nov. 12, 2009 at 7:08 pm
same thing happened in my family. when I read this my aunt as the first I thought of. =) keep up the writing!
LeilaniLives said...
Nov. 7, 2009 at 1:55 am
You made me cry. Not a single poem I've read in the last few days had made me actually tear. You are beautiful inside and I'm sure outside as well. Keep your head up sweetheart. You're making the world a better place.
DEARtiffanyy said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 10:45 pm
This is just woww.
It sent shivers up my spine.
I'm sorry for your loss. :(
screenname! said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 5:54 pm
This was sad! It makes me remember how lucky I am to have a mother that cares for me this much. I hope I learn to be appreciative after this
legolas_elf said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 4:50 pm
This poem was absolutely amazing. I am lucky enough to still have a loving, caring mother to whom I am super close and I cannot imagine going through a single day without her because we always talk and all of my secrets lie with her. This poem pretty much moved me to tears. Could you please read my poem. It's in free verse poetry and it's called I See about the Jim Crow South.
upsidedownpineapple said...
Nov. 4, 2009 at 3:15 pm
this really hit me, i almost cried. my mom also died and i barely remember her
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