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The Boat In-Between
I close my eyes and tilt my head upwards....
I feel the warm sun, the breeze, and a pure-yellow washes over me...
The boat moves gently, swaying along in harmony with the deep blue underneath...
My eyelids, still dropped, closing me off, shielding me, keeping me away...
Yet I still travel through time and place....
I still move through the shadows of the day, through the stars of the night...
I move, silently, tip-toeing...
I move beyond....
And then I am there, seeing the little girl, on a swing-set, carefree...
I am there seeing the look of pure jubilance on her face as she flies with the wind...hair
whipping...hands clutching...eyes crinkling...laughter dancing....
I am there, further in time, there...where little droplets escape from her brown orbs....
I am there, yet again further....where determination to do something is set in her face...
I smile, reminiscing...and then I know it is time...
I am back within myself...but not with myself....
I am lost in the shadow of my own memories...
Time flies behind my closed eyes....
I see me on that swing, laughing....
I see me in school, cries escaping, tears spilling...
I see me at home...working diligently till the sleep takes over...
And then I see me, back on the boat...
I open my eyes...
I am alone...
All alone...
Silence fills the air...
I look at myself...through the reflections of the swirling colors, memories, emotions...
I look at myself...through the dark lashes touching the tips of my cheeks...through the blinding
light of sun...through the clear reflections of the deep blue...
I see myself in a curled position, arms hugging my knees to me...
I see a hollow shell...
One worried about everything...yet nothing...
One worried about things that don’t matter...
I see a shell so afraid of leaping...so afraid of failing...so afraid of flying...so afraid of crashing...
So afraid of believing...
So afraid of being simply me...
I see a shell that has lost the soul somewhere within...
I see a soul straining to be released...
I stand up...and let it wash over me...healing...helping...breaking....
I feel the sun, the breeze, the pureness again...
I feel a sense of understanding washing over me....
I look to my right and see an endless water of possibilities...
I see a path with bumps and curves...with downfalls and pain...but I also see a light....
A light, illuminating the darkness...
I look back and I see mountains...mountains that I have climbed...
The hardships and the rewards...I see a lost soul...
I look up and I see the pureness again...the yellow-white glow...
I see that I am standing in between...
I am standing in a boat...between the demons of my past...and the angels of my future...
I am standing between living and being truly alive...
I am standing in between fear and strength...between regret for the past and regret for the future...
I am standing in between...
I think...about new chances and past mistakes...I think about becoming stronger and succumbing
to my weaknesses...
I think...and think...
And then I know...
I take one last look at the sun...and dive...swimming away from the boat...away from the in-
between....
I am in the waters of possibilities now...and there are no more regrets, no more shells...
I am afraid of failing...but not of flying...because I know every time I fail...I can still fly again...
I am no longer afraid of believing....in me...
As a swim further and further... I know...I made the right choice...because after all every day is a
new opportunity...a new chance at everything....a new way to become fully alive...
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