I stay up past one a.m. just to feel human.

Instead, I feel even more dead.

I wished that I had what i wanted most in life.

To feel alive instead of dead.

Especially when It's hard to breathe this air with you gone.

I lay awake at night crying silently to feel somewhat alive.

Do you ever feel crushed by the world when you have no reasons too be?

Cause' I do, every day.

If I could, I would run away to a far place away from Oklahoma.

I would be happy with my new life.

That's just a dream sadly, I still have 481 days till I move.

It's hard to breathe now, but it will get better.