It haunts me
It taunts me
I see its shadows everywhere
But when I look around, it’s never there

I cover my ears when I hear its sadistic comedy
Forcing myself to block its mockery
But the damage has been done
It cuts through my soul like a gun

My mind races with fears
My eyes flood with tears
I try to hold back, try to hold on
But a mask of nonchalance is not easy to don

I need something to grasp
But with the world moving at such a dizzying pace, no one hears my pain-filled rasp
I fall to the ground broken
I want so badly to be anything besides soft-spoken

I don’t know why I let it hurt me so
I think I have become used to this woe
People say that soon this hard work will pay off, I will be happy
But I wonder, is it worth it, when I am so full of misery

Then out of the fast-paced world you come
You are my own personal sun
You help me up, take my hand
And for the first time in years, I stand

You look through my sad eyes to my soul
You smile and slowly I begin to feel more whole
You tell me there is no shame in being alone
For this world is a battle zone, each person is on his own

You tell me I should be proud for not giving into the fakes
At least I am still me and not another Jake
You teach me to find happiness in my misery
After all, this world is splintery not glittery

And now when I walk in a dizzying world by myself
I know I will never be lonely
Because I know you are always here, walking closely
Somewhere around me