Dear God, 

I am so sorry. I have sinned over and over, rationalizing it away. I haven't been honoring You or giving You my days.

I have doubted and doubted and ignored and disobeyed.

And you know what? I feel awful when I don't live my life for You.

I've been running and resenting without meaning to. 

Since You are Lord of All, you know my mind and my heart,

but here I send insence to You... I just don't know where to start.

Existence is fickle and I don't understand.

I know you hold me, I know You have a plan,

but I feel a bit tortured and I can't make that feeling go away.

God, please comfort me and grant me brighter days.

I want to be Your servant and give this all to You,

but I don't quite know how; please, show me what to do.

Please give me open eyes and an open heart,

please show me what to do and teach me how to start.

Lord, I keep coming to the conclusion that I don't want this life.

Please show me how to use that feeling to be a light.

Thank You, God for blessings that I'm not grateful enough for.

Thank You that I can safely hang a cross on my front door.

Thank You for my family, for food, for school, for my home.

Thank You for sending your beloved and perfect son to die for me,

bruised and naked and alone.

You are much more powerful than I can comprehend,

yet for a child like me Your love knows no end.

Lord, this I believe and this I know;

consume my life and let it brightly show.

God, give me courage and give me strength,

humility and patience and gentleness to exude Your great grace.

Help me to make it through another day;

in Jesus's beautiful name I pray.

Amen (xoxo)