I am from family,
the friends I couldn't lose.
From unknowns to loved ones,
to loved ones lost in the unknown.

I am from moving.
From Wisconsin to Colorado to Iowa and back.
From school to school,
Old as good as new.

I am from new friends to lost friends,
and people I didn't know.
From places in cities,
to places where I belong.

I am from not understanding,
to not wanting to understand.
From clueless in the shadows,
to casting the shadow over others.

I wish there were friends,
friends I could call family.
Friends are in it for the ride,
while family makes the ride worth it.

I wish I was there,
that one place that was home.
A place I could go,
before my life is gone.

I wish I understood,
why I would always go.
I was the one that left,
while others were left behind.

I am now family,
to those that aren't blood.
I hold on to my past,
and use it to build a future around everything I love.

I am now stable,
the one who fears change.
For change means loss,
and loss means sadness.