When I Look Inside This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine.

December 8, 2008
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I wish to have been born a cloud

But I was conceived by humans,
Wearing a skin of flaws
The philosophers say
You have to look inside yourself to find the answers
So I slide into my throat

I float around, amazed at my internal organs

Cells whisper
Into my ears,
Reminding me of who I’m not
I crawl away into my heart and I find a desk and chair,
So I try to write a letter,
Ease the pain of thoughts
But the ink crawls up my skin,
Tattooing me in thorny scrawls
I try to run away,
Veins wrap around my arms
I try to push the door open
But it pushes right back
So I wrap my arms around my knees
And I just sit there and I scream
The pounding of my heart gets louder
Like a toddler beating a drum
So loud is that drum,
I have to unwrap my arms and cover my ears
I stop screaming and scrunch my face in anguish
I think that toddler is mighty strong
And then it gets quiet
It’s like I’m in the center of a jellyfish ­umbrella
And I just sit

Half awed
Half afraid
Because I know,
No matter how long I sit there,
I’m never going to find out who I am

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

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OldYoungOne said...
Nov. 26, 2012 at 9:30 pm
Raw emotion
Jrbcrazygirl said...
Dec. 17, 2011 at 7:34 pm
I love it, I know lots of people feel this way and your poem says it in a beautifully touching way
Kayte said...
Oct. 15, 2011 at 10:06 am
This is ansolutely beautiful!! So original and so touching. I'm relieved to know I'm not alone in my battle for identity.
jlw11 said...
Mar. 21, 2011 at 1:34 pm
This was really great. The way you used the words and captured the details of everything you came into contact with was just amazing!
AnimalGirl said...
Feb. 8, 2011 at 12:07 pm
wow. all i con think to say iw wow. wow.
Kidlet This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Oct. 13, 2010 at 9:22 am
......Wow. I love it! :)
mrs.america said...
May 19, 2010 at 11:09 am
its different i lke it
neonknight01 said...
Apr. 3, 2010 at 11:48 pm
haha veddy nice! and original too!
sonnysulouff This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Mar. 13, 2010 at 4:04 pm
Beautiful. Such a creative and interesting way to relate to everyone. Love it.
Tamara*Monta said...
Jan. 15, 2010 at 3:20 pm
verry unique and creative... I absolutley love it. Great job... Mabey youl could help me critike mine
silent-one said...
Jan. 8, 2010 at 8:27 pm
i love the feeling of curiosity in this poem. investigating yourself. the imagery was excellent!!!!
life_of_a_leaf said...
Jan. 4, 2010 at 10:02 pm
this is the most creative figurative language i have even seen. excellent poem.
AnneW said...
Dec. 30, 2009 at 1:28 am
I absolutely love it. You grabbed my attention from the very beginning and held it to the last word. Very nice job! You deserve to have this published. Keep writing, I cannot wait to read more
Rage97 said...
Nov. 28, 2009 at 10:55 am
This poem is absolutley wonderful, it is like you were talking about myself to the T. I am new to teen ink and I was wondering if you could look at some of my work one is: I tryed thanks with love!!!!
Paig3Cagl3 said...
Nov. 5, 2009 at 2:58 pm
This poem has great flow and insight.
I really enjoyed it.
Lovely poem darling =]
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cassidyrae said...
Sept. 16, 2009 at 7:13 pm
your poem kind of caught me off guard. it gave me a new perspective to think about, i never thought of it that way before! its a good eye-opener, and incredibly creative.i could picture it all in my mind. very nice.
penguinfriend said...
Sept. 2, 2009 at 4:53 pm
that, is, amazing. unique, brilliant, inspiring. it's very vivid to me on how if you study yourself, you'll develop yourself more (half in awe). but i'll not know who we truly fully are (half afraid) on this earth. 100/5! ;D
erin L. said...
Jul. 24, 2009 at 7:39 am
i think its brilliant
quantumangel This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 8, 2009 at 8:36 pm
This is a great poem! I especially love your use of imagery- the ink crawling up your skin, veins wrapping around your arms, etc. The ending phrase is perfect, and leaves the reader with a sense of sadness, but at the same time understanding. Congratulations on getting published- you deserve it!
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