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Hit Me

July 28, 2014
By ktcat SILVER, Great Neck, New York
ktcat SILVER, Great Neck, New York
8 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Not all those who wander are lost." ~J.R.R Tolkien


Love is a violent thing
It cracks you open and lets your insides spill
Out, sidelining
Your name,
Your face,
Your will to pull yourself together
Filling spaces that had only dust before
The world doesn’t hold back, it
Winds up and kicks you in the teeth
Pulls you up by your hair and screams in your face
I learned it early
That you can’t love without breaking something

Zeros are damned hard to draw
When you hold the pencil in the wrong hand
They don’t call the left hand right for a reason, but
They never told me why
My teacher broke it in half
(The pencil, not the hand)
And gave me the side without the eraser
I cried
There were so many zeros to draw
So many fears to wipe away
That blurred the crooked lines

In Bayside,
The duplex that kept the rain off seven backs
Was too small for even just me and my ego
I had to be trained to make myself small
With a leather belt across my palm,
My thigh,
My face
I was like a wild horse
Bucking like a California quake
Throwing cowboys off my back
Thinking that this must be what a revolution looks like
This must be what a revolution feels like

It was grass and rain and our limbs
All tangled up together
I was like a mute, my quiet muffled the sound
So he couldn’t hear, couldn’t stop to listen to the
Sounds of my hands whisper, “I love you, I love you, I love
You.”
We broke down the tent we made, woven
Deep with all the colors of the sky
Broke down the shade that kept harsh rays
From blinding us painfully
We broke painfully, or maybe
It was all gone a long time ago

His back hit the lockers so hard
That my teeth rattled
And my hairs rose like the voices that stood still
Not touching him, not touching me
Boy I didn’t know—girl I didn’t know—boy who was all the things I ever knew
My left hand yanked me across the hall
And grabbed the arm that shoved
My eyes found eyes that dripped with blame
Mine said,
I learned how to forget my skin
For stinging me when someone got mad so
Take your best shot
Hit me
I already know how to laugh


The author's comments:
I'm inspired by victims of ignorance, of domestic violence, of heartbreak. I'm inspired by their pain and the smallness of it next to their triumphs and laughter. I'm inspired by how I'm still here, half-smiling, after any and all trials. I hope to inspire you.

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HammadWaseem said...
on Aug. 1 2014 at 10:38 am
HammadWaseem, Lahore, Other
0 articles 5 photos 286 comments

Favorite Quote:
Be proud of who you are.
-Eminem

You can't see me
-John Cena

Ooh, somebody stop me!
-Mask

Your welcome. :)

ktcat SILVER said...
on Aug. 1 2014 at 9:09 am
ktcat SILVER, Great Neck, New York
8 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Not all those who wander are lost." ~J.R.R Tolkien

You are too kind. Thank youuu I liked your work too! Definitely will follow. :)   (oops made a separate comment, silly me)

_Emmm SILVER said...
on Jul. 31 2014 at 8:13 pm
_Emmm SILVER, Burlington, Other
7 articles 1 photo 18 comments

Favorite Quote:
“Poetry is an orphan of silence. The words never quite equal the experience behind them.”
- Charles Simic

Beautifully written. Amazed with all your work!

ktcat SILVER said...
on Jul. 31 2014 at 5:48 pm
ktcat SILVER, Great Neck, New York
8 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Not all those who wander are lost." ~J.R.R Tolkien

Thanks again, Hammad! Keep dancing!

ktcat SILVER said...
on Jul. 31 2014 at 5:47 pm
ktcat SILVER, Great Neck, New York
8 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Not all those who wander are lost." ~J.R.R Tolkien

Gah, thank you so much for your comments, TheComet and moderndayEmilyDickenson! This poem is very personal to me, so it means so, so much that you like it. :)

HammadWaseem said...
on Jul. 31 2014 at 4:55 pm
HammadWaseem, Lahore, Other
0 articles 5 photos 286 comments

Favorite Quote:
Be proud of who you are.
-Eminem

You can't see me
-John Cena

Ooh, somebody stop me!
-Mask

Beautiful poem! I really like it 

on Jul. 31 2014 at 4:48 pm
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
81 articles 5 photos 1492 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

So deep, so powerful, so much feeling, and so good. Thank you for sharing this!

on Jul. 31 2014 at 4:30 pm
TheComet PLATINUM, Mostaganem, Other
22 articles 1 photo 439 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret" -Ambrose Bierce
" Be yourself! Everybody else is already taken ;)"
"Don't go where the path leads you. Go instead where there's no path and leave a trail ;)"-R.W.Emerson

That was DEEP! That's all I can say....It was deep, very emotional and  so detailed ! I'm impressed ^_^ You let me dive into your poem and feel everything, like living every single moment of it. I can say that I relate to this in some way so really great job on explaining and making every moment clear. It defenitly deserves a 5 stars rating :D Keep up the great work and thanks for sharing this ^_^


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