Starting from the middle
Moving forward a little at a time
As my thoughts recollect and I reconnect with the world
And realize
That you’re in mine
Realistically, I know it ain’t ever gonna happen
But statistically, it’s normal for me to set myself
Just a few notches behind
Everybody else
Tighten my belt and get a grip that this is all, that’s it
It’s all that I’ll ever be
I know some of them look at me like I’m crazy
But you,
Maybe
Not so much
You take me
Where I am
Even though
That’s going nowhere
Fast
The lines blur
The heart races
And I’m taking it one spur of the moment decision at a time
I’m fine
As long as you’ll still look at me with those eyes
Even though it’s hopeless
I know that my thoughts matter in your mind
And that’s all that counts for now
Isn’t that right?
I don’t have to make it into anything more than it has to be so how is it going to be from now on?
I see the dawn for the first time in ages
And it’s pretty, just like I’m sposed to be
You see me
And you don’t even know her
You see me
I’m sure that you do
My question is who
Do you see me to be?
Who’s the girl in the mirror
And what do we
Do with her when we figure it out?
Is it loud in your head?
Cause mine’s built on entropy
That no amount of theories or therapy can fix
So there’s this
And I don’t know what to do with….this
Yet
But I will when you know everything
When I finally feel like coming clean
Do you need to read this to know?
Can we go on in the clear if you don’t?
I just need a friend
To hold me together so I don’t break
Just bend, only a little now and then
That’s all I can ask of you
You deserve happy ever after
Too
And I don’t think I’m it
Nor will I ever be
The girl that you wanted as much as I want you to see
That I’m someone, I could be someone for you
But the truth of the matter
Is I’m scared and confused
All that I’m after
Is a safe place, some refuge
While I was out looking
I stumbled into you
That’s all I can really say to explain
Couldn’t tell you why I was there
Or why I’m so afraid
And I know is the happy, not so accidental truth
I’ve been stumbling for a while now
But I stumbled into you