Big Enough MAG

April 26, 2014
By My_sweet_Emily SILVER, Sanford, Florida
My_sweet_Emily SILVER, Sanford, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
Drive it like you stole it.


I’m never going to feel big enough
or smart enough
or pretty enough.
I’m never going to be enough.
At 5'1", 130 pounds, with crystal blue eyes and a coppery brownish set of curls that touch my waist,
I feel like crap.
No amount of A’s,
no acceptance to elite programs,
could change the fact that every leap I take
is followed by two back.
No amount of boys telling me I’m pretty
or my teachers’ “Great jobs” could change that.
Because
I stopped hearing “I’m proud of you,”
“You’re beautiful,”
a long time ago
from the people from whom it mattered most.
Now it’s jokes about weight
or the single pimple on my face,
it’s “You’re grounded till you do better,”
“Why can’t you be like her?”

So I’m never going to be enough,
and I feel like giving up.
But
when he kisses my head,
I hold on a little tighter;
when he plays with my bracelets,
I want to take them off;
when he curls my hair around his finger,
I don’t feel so ashamed.
Because
I may not be big enough,
but
his arms fit perfectly around me;
I may not be smart enough,
but
it doesn’t take rocket science to see I love him.
So when he looks me in the eyes,
I couldn’t care less about my thighs,
or if my chest is big enough.
And when our lips meet
I forget all the scars carved into me,
looking like fractured porcelain.
I forget the names I’ve been called,
and I forget what it’s like not to be big enough.



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on Apr. 30 2014 at 7:51 pm
callieismyname BRONZE, Klamath Falls, Oregon
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Favorite Quote:
"Live your life the way you want to, not the way everyone thinks you should." ~unknown

Woah. This is really good. I think a lot of people can relate. Keep up the good work :) 

on Apr. 30 2014 at 2:43 pm
TheRealUniverse, Nowhere, Other
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Amazing piece.  I like how you changed it around at the point when he kisses your forehead.  It shows the  versatility that you possess.  It has a relatable atmosphere to it, that even I myself can relate to.  All in all, well penned.  Keep up the great writing!! Thank you!

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on Apr. 30 2014 at 2:32 pm
Creativia, Oviedo, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"Do to others as you would have them do to you"

Well written, I could definitely relate to always wanting to be better. :-)


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