Nothing but the beating of my helpless, threatened heart when I walk the halls and my dignity is stripped apart. I used to be courageous and handle life with strength, never did I think this was all it would take. I feel a weakness I can't handle to feel again and it rips me apart that I don't have my best friend. I am lost. For the first time in my life. Trying to avoid my burdens and do what is right. I am strong and I refuse to show fear but it makes it that much harder because she is no longer here. I don't want to hate them but I don't want to hear my name being whispered when I walk near. I don't even know them but they know so much and I try to keep myself from thinking that I have had enough. I am done I want to be gone because this isn't life if so much is going wrong. I feel only negative and I hate myself for it and that happy girl I once knew. I won't give up on it