So I'm kind of sad all the time
and I dunno but to keep it inside
like a pansy and I, being me,
am a little confused on life and

People expect things from me
like I’m some kind of positive being
but how can I be who I’ve been
when I sure don’t seem like a sin but

as long as I look the right way
and appear the same face
everything’s ok in space
like planets aligned straight right?

even though I still think like I do
and remember the things that aren’t true
but sure seem factual to
who is actually living those truths

Why can’t you see that
I’m kind of sad all the time
and I dunno but to keep it
inside like a pansy and I, being me,
am a little confused on life

You see its hard to be the same face
when i'm first in the race of
realizing ones fates, mistakes, and utter disappointments
that come crashing down on me
because of my stupid expectations
of what’s life’s “supposed” to be

...But lets not get carried away...

as long as I look the right way
and appear the same face
everything's ok in space
like planets aligned perfectly straight …right?

Yet no body cares about me
because they see what they want to see
and I’m always there on a spree
of what life’s “supposed” to be

its times like these
when I forget how to breathe
because of this stirring unease
that you caused but you cannot see

therefore you betrayed my soul
and laid your toll
in someone else’s wretched hole
of their heart
cause you were there at the start

and it only sucks cause you fall
for the silly little mucks of us all
that crave your existence but
we only need what hasn’t been here since
the instance of that which you felt your resistance

to retain such disorder
in your little mucked up corner
for which you pour and pour
into the ditch for more and more

seeming to be okay when im not
I feel this way because I rot
from inside and outside all locked
this rip-tide and hang glide all flopped

but s’all good cause I’m not
the exact way you always thought
and as long as im not bought
into the same stupid standard knot
for my personal emotions
that are true for me

I am exactly how im “supposed” to be
Youre just too blind to see me for me
Because you see me for your own personal uplifting unbeauty