I sit in my room
All by myself
Knowing I’m wrong
And that I need help
But I won’t admit
That I cut my wrists
And skip meals
At least twice a day
I won’t admit
That I cry myself to sleep
I’ll smile so big
Yet so fake
No one can tell the difference
I can walk for hours and get lost
Not knowing where I’ve gone
Because I’m numb inside
And don’t really know what’s going on
I remember waking up
And then laying down in bed
I don’t remember who I saw
Or even what I said
I grab my teddy bear
And pull him to my chest
Grab my knees
And weep uncontrollably
I cry as long as my eyes will let me
And I don’t even know how late it is
The same routine in the morning will begin
I won’t know the day or the time
Because everything blurs together
When you’re as low as I