I want to be alive...
Not just breathing
And mindlessly moving
Through every day
In a
Horrendously
Repetitive manner
But truly living
With fire
In my eyes;
Always on the brink
Of something profound

I want to experience
All of the
Ups and downs
Tears
Streaming down my face
A world blurred
By sadness
And an echo
Of hope
Distorted and unsure
Because feeling something
Is better
Than nothing at all

I want the taste
Of your mouth on mine
As a passionate
Storm
Roars through my body
In the dead of night
When we are the only
People on earth
I have never
Felt magic
So powerful
It could break me
But so beautiful
It is worth it

I want to let
Everything take over
And fill me up
Until I’m bubbling over
With knowledge
And experience
And words
Until I am wise enough
To leave behind
The mask of perfection
I wear
And accept
The beautifully
Flawed concept
Of humanity

I don’t want
To be stuck in a
Black hole of
Boredom and nostalgia
Of pointless routine
I want out
Of my comfort zone
Breaking boundaries
That others set
I want out
Into the real world
Experiencing
Everything for the first time
Like a newborn baby
Full of wonder
Eyes wild
As I take in
The enthralling
World around me

My question is,
How do I get to this point
When I feel trapped
By the expectations
Of those around
Me
When I have
No. F***ing. Idea.
What I want
Other than to be alive