I am an empty spool
Of yarn all spun out
The last piece plucked
So fast it felt slow
The words I have
I shared with you but
Now
There’s no one to hear them
Be strong
Be brave
But how
When this could be the beginning
Of the end
An end that I really don’t want
I am lost
And broken
An empty spool with no more yarn
Left to be spun
Just one piece that connects
From me to you
But it is so frail and thin
I can feel it being pulled
Further and further
As you walk further and further
Away from me
I want to grab your hand and
Pull you back so close
We can feel our hearts beating
I want to kiss you
Tell you that I can help
I want to help
I want to be there
I want to scream that
This can become permanent
The pulling apart can become permanent
But you don’t want that
No help
No me
Just you
And I have to be okay with that
I never thought I’d be
An empty spool
You say it’s temporary
But that word has such a range
Months apart now turn into
Months of silence
I am an empty spool
Broken
Crushed heart
Crushed soul
We were okay
I thought so but
I was wrong
I’m getting pushed away
Without a reason
Which leaves me hurt
I’ve had a break before and
It turned into permanent
I was okay with that
But permanent with you?
I don’t want that
I want to love you
And to be loved by you
I don’t get it
I’m lost
Confused
Broken
So
F***ing
Broken
An empty spool
An empty spool
An empty spool
A f***ing empty
Broken
Spool
I hope you come back to me
I want you to come back to me
I have this feeling that you won’t
That you’ll break it off for good
And I’ll just have to be okay with that
Okay with being an empty spool
For quite a while longer