at times you appear into my mind
an airplane flying in the infinite sky
drops your being into my head time to time

my mind is dark black and you
you are the only face blending out

I'll listen to a song and I'll remember you
I'll specifically blare the rappers you streamed through your car

You never knew, but I would admire the way you drove

your red vans gently eased on the gas pedal
you stared straight ahead with your wolf green eyes
those eyes you had made me insane
you'd slightly turn your head to the rear view mirror
the fingers I adored clicked the turning signal on

a lot of times I couldn't believe i was in the same car as you
I couldn't take in the idea of you driving me, driving us,
to your place.
You'd laugh that odd, odd laugh with your friends
and exhale the smoke of mary jane

I'd take a hit but I'd watch you the whole time
and wish I could be inside you

to touch your deepest depths
I wanted to save you
but I never got lucky
to be the one


you'd lure me into your bedroom
you'd lock the door and pick me up
a half an hour later,
I was sprawled bare on top of your sheets
you were dressed

getting up, getting out
I wanted to know where you were going

my heart would follow you
but it would bounce back to me after a few paces
your trace was invincible

I wanted to love you
I was someone to keep you from lonely
You were someone I'd be forbidden to see
You were someone who maybe knew me better than anyone
and maybe you saw right through me the whole time


that I never needed to worry if I was wonderful
because none of it mattered in the end