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Untitled Suicide

October 30, 2013
By Namaste BRONZE, Mclean, Virginia
Namaste BRONZE, Mclean, Virginia
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This is killing me, friend. It is slowly killing me.

You are my protector, never once letting harm touch me. You are the shoulder I rub my wet eyes on as I think about the past. You are the one who constantly reminds me of my beauty and worth. You are my inspiration.

But I can see the hurt in your eyes. I can see right through you.

You love me.

I am nothing special. Yet you love me, friend.

What makes you look at me like this? Please tell me so I can rid it from myself, throw it away and never find it again.

We are killing each other; slowly killing each other.

You are not supposed to feel this way, friend.

I need you as what you are, companion, confidant and encourager; nothing more. You cannot do this to me.

I love you too friend. But not like you love me.

It is slowly killing me in the worst way possible. It is painfully agonizing. I want it to end; right now. Not tomorrow and not the day after that. Now.

I need you in my life but I fear that we will lose what we have if I reject you. I have to make a choice.

“You do not choose who you love,” you once told me. And I feel sorry for you.

I feel sorry for you, friend.

So I will sacrifice myself; sacrifice my happiness, my true feelings and our lives as we know them.

I will not let your feelings kill me. I will do it myself.

I do not make a move to stop you as your eyes melt into mine, your fingers softly tracing the back of my hand. And then…

I kiss you, brother.

I am dead now. But you...you are flying.



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Namaste BRONZE said...
on Nov. 11 2013 at 8:35 pm
Namaste BRONZE, Mclean, Virginia
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thank you! it means a lot :)

Namaste BRONZE said...
on Nov. 11 2013 at 8:34 pm
Namaste BRONZE, Mclean, Virginia
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thank you! it means a lot :)

Namaste BRONZE said...
on Nov. 11 2013 at 8:33 pm
Namaste BRONZE, Mclean, Virginia
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thank you so much!

Nommoc GOLD said...
on Nov. 10 2013 at 9:53 pm
Nommoc GOLD, Jackson, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
Roses are red. Violets are blue. An original poem is long overdue.

I really liked the line “'You do not choose who you love,' you once told me. And I feel sorry for you." That was amazing. I loved your poem.

on Nov. 10 2013 at 8:46 pm
Carpe-Caffeam GOLD, No Where, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
“If it weren’t for the coffee, I’d have no identifiable personality whatsoever.” –David Letterman

So beautiful..especially that last line. The last line was absolutely brilliant.