The crack in my heart gets bigger day by day,
all for you.
But you don't know,
you won't know,
and you can't know.

Secrets, I hide behind the secrets.
Seeing you sashay away,
brushing your hair out of your ocean blue eyes.
My fear holds me back as you come close.

I take a step back and hide my eyes.
For I'm not pretty enough,
I'm not smart enough,
I'm not funny enough,
I'm not cute enough,
I'm sorry, but I'm not enough.

I never will be enough,
I know you'll forget me,
I know you haven't even met me,
but you healed me.
You have the voice of an angel,
when you smile I smile,
when you cry I cry.
You are my world, but you don't know.

You are in a band, and I can't ever be in the stands.
I'm too scared of rejection,
I'm too afraid of ridicule.
I'm too afraid of you not liking me.

You mean the most, so I shy away.
When I see new pictures of you,
my heart seals the crack that was made.
Some are just fans,
but they will never know what I went through.
The way I pushed the blade into my skin,
the way I loved the sensation.
They will never know who made me,
they will never know why I did it,
they will never even know when I go.

I have been clean for a while,
but i still have temptations.
Seeing pictures of you hold me together,
you are my rock.



Thank you for saving me!
You are my hero