Relaxing on a hill, my eyelids draw down and mold itself to the shape.

Trying to belong with the environment, my mind roams.

An essence of mist forms surrounding my body, I slowly drift from reality.

My soul grows wings and takes flight on a faraway journey.

It whisks in rapid waters.

They slash and crash into one another.

I drown and sink.

I try to grasp for anything to help keep me afloat, but nothing.

I gasp for air, yet I get submerged and can’t find my way.

I beg and plead, call and search.

My voice cracking and gurgling of water as I scream, I don’t seem to be heard.

How can something so beautiful and calm, be so destructive and dangerous?

Then I feel warmth, the sun beating down on my pale, delicate, well-lit face.

When I slowly come out of my trance, I felt as if I woke up as a new person.

Being cleansed and reborn.

My thoughts flowing smoothly inside my head, from the clouds that hide secrets above.

Blurred vision with a different perspective and mindset.

My spirit was casted into the unknown and was misled but became part of the world.

It became part of nature.

I felt more at ease, I felt at home.

Suddenly a breeze comes whipping my hair back and forth.

I smell the earth as it starts to awaken.

The smell of sweet September beginning to transform into October.

I watch as autumn paints the leaves colorful patterns, as some dance along the street.

The willow tree carrying her cries throughout leaving behind the life of her roots.

With all her memories that fade to exist as a pure imagination.

The sound of crunching leaves.

The texture of wet and dry grass when my hands are running through it.

Birds singing and dancing as they’re flying above.

The smell of wood burning and flames rising in the air.

Crackling of wood beginning to split apart.

The heat tracing the contour of my body and warming me as cold chills takeover.

I see a figure out the corner of my eye, growing closer to me with every second.

I peak over my shoulder to see an amazing smile.

My friend with a scent, that sends adrenaline pumping through my entire body.

The warm, red velvet rushing of blood coursing through my veins.

My heart pounding like an African drum.

My face beginning to flush with eagerness.

My heart pounding more rapid; it stops and I lose my breath.

For an instant I blinked and found my friend leaning over top of me, I begin to contemplate.

Whispering graciously he stares me dead in the eye.

His eyes like crystallized glass, the color reminds me of shimmering light reflecting off of the sea with a tint of green leaf, dead center is pitch black with a light hazel ring.

With the sun gleaming down from behind his head, made him look majestic.

He was a gift from above.

He leans in closer for a kiss and that’s when I knew he wasn't only my friend, he was my angel.

Little did I know we soon went separate ways, down different paths.

My angel started to dwindle away, faint.

He became distant.

He was my comfort, now he’s my stress.

Once inside a daze, I learned optimism.

I let negative energy escape my core.

I became more open to life, more in control.

Once again life takes hold.

Life seeps memories into my mind.

Images of him flash through me, one at a time.

I let my guard down and he slipped through the wall I built.

Finally after all this time protecting it, in a second it came crumbling down.

The sight, of what once was my angel, was misery.

With a touch of his soft, yet tender hand my emotions came pouring out.

All hope in the wall I built was lost.

I know these feelings for him won’t disappear and I know I won’t just abandon them.

With my dying breath will be the last I will love of him.

Now more than ever I wish he was more than just a memory.