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All That Holds.

I feel uncontrollably empty inside
So I deny
Food.
I have control over that emptiness
I have control over that wrenching pain
I have control over that.
I have control.
I have…
Nothing.
At least not on the inside
On the outside I have everything
But everything I have, I hide.
My intricate map of self-destruction
Lies,
Lies under my tight long sleeves or gloves.
Because of the lie of love
The begging question of will I ever be enough?
How can you ever be enough when you weigh in 90 pounds?
Especially when half of that weight is from gravity holding you to the ground
It’s all that holds you.
Aside from the glue I have placed between your bones.
I thought you needed some sense of structure
Perhaps you don’t remember
Or maybe you cut that away too.



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MissExplorationThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. said...
Aug. 11, 2013 at 11:39 am:
Great description of what can create an eating disorder and what happens from it. 
 
tori-gurl replied...
Aug. 14, 2013 at 6:51 pm :
Thanks! :D I think it is important to write about these types of issues and bring attention to them so others can understand a little bit better what some people go through.
 
ss.Heart replied...
Aug. 23, 2013 at 5:22 pm :
nicely worded i'm reading your work and it is very diverse,please check out my work as well i am new to this site and could use a little support! :)
 
tori-gurl replied...
Sept. 1, 2013 at 6:33 pm :
Thanks and I am headed to see some of your work now :) ss.Heart  
 
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