A broken heart
A shattered mind
A view on the world
As demented as mine
I think about the past
The future and now
I don’t know where to go
And I don’t know how
How I became the person I am today
The images living in my head
The thoughts that kill me
The memories that I dread
Today being a mirror image of yesterday
They say I can be happy now
With you so far away
But I relive the pain
Whenever I hear your name
I was never the princess in the castle
The stars never sparkled in my eyes
What is happiness
When I was raised believing in only demise
They say time heals all wounds
But those cuts are still fresh
The bruises still blue
And the truth still pressed
Seven years of my life
You took it all away
You were supposed to love me
But you made me the mistake I am today
Sometimes I wish I was never born
That she had aborted me that day
I wouldn’t have to live this life
Wouldn’t have to pretend that I ran and play
Childhood is nothing but a dream
A reality I can never know
You took it all away
I grew up fast that day
I needed you to love me
To protect me from harm
Not beat me and bruise me
I knew the truth the day you broke my arm
I remember coming home on nights
Bloody and in tears
I remember the smile on your face
Realizing I had lived my deepest fears
You say I deserved it
That he had all rights
To kill me inside
And take away my innocence that night
I remember you now
As the man and woman I’ve learned to hate
Though that love can never go away
You are my parents to this date
I will always reach for your approval
But I know that is a mark I will never reach
I am sorry for my mistakes
For ever being born
I’m sorry mommy and daddy
I didn’t mean to cause this life so much harm