now I'm here because of you
with tears and scars
most of all the pain
watch me as i drown in deep sorrow

i try to reach my goal
"you can never make it" you say
well one is to make you happy what i do turns out wrong
why can't you see this for once

your right by the way
I'm a failure
so why do i even try?
you wouldn't care so there's no point
i should just die

so....

why the tears and scars with the pain?
because of all the mean things you say
it hurts to hear them
so I'm a self harmer
its nothing new
i just do things to finish off the day

every night when everyone is sleeping
I'm awake
what am i doing?
I'm crying and think in complete darkness

thinking of what?
me being a bad granddaughter, how i fail at everything, how i should just kill myself, I'm not worth it, how i hate myself
but mostly on how i could NEVER make you happy
ma and mom may be alike
but i want to be better then others

i try with my grades, poetry, reading, track, all types of things to see at least a smile
not even that

well....

I'm sorry that's all i could say.