I am from tacos de asada,

Tamales on Christmas and ring pops,

(sweet, red and fruity)

I am from crying silently

at night on my

warm,

cozy,

bed.

From shutting down

From screaming my lungs out.

I am from my fear of

Sand, and imaginary

Monsters.

I am from rape,

Scary, dark, and unfair!

I am from mistakes,

Broken goals, and

Smiles.

I am from five

Annoying and helpful siblings.

From both parents

Yelling, kissing,

Fighting, hugging.

I am from reading at night,

Pretending to sleep,

And laughing.

I am from soccer,

Lacrosse and somehow basketball.

I am from boiling up,

Shutting down,

And not speaking up.

I am from his

Actions,

From his drugs,

His tattoo and his secrets,

Its awful.

I am from

Lingering guilt,

Of not saving her,

Not stopping him,

Not telling,

And not giving

Good advice.

I am from many things

Good or bad

They make me,

Me.