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Primavera

May 4, 2013
By EYSYL SILVER, Jackson Heights, New York
EYSYL SILVER, Jackson Heights, New York
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Favorite Quote:
“Mother of otherness,
Eat me.”


I want to say what everyone knows,
What you, yourself have yet to figure out
If anyone could’ve saved me, it would’ve been you

I come in fits and fevers, smoking cigarettes
Wanting the world

I will swallow you whole
I have found myself calling hundred dollar bets, winning and losing more money than I earn at my day job

And every morning, I wake
In a warm bed with a girl who loves me and I do not love her back

We’re just trying to add to our lives, (lies)
We’re just taking what we get

I can hardly see any of you
I used to look at the sun until it would set in the west and I would close my eyes and see lines with dots like constellations in the sky,
One day, we’ll be there too

All of these words are wrong, all of you are you sitting in your chairs and standing on your feet looking at me with your eyes, incapable of recognizing
Please, don’t forget to breathe

I’ve spent weekends forcing memories out;
Brain cells drowning in bathtub gin

Words, words, words
Tumbling out of my mouth without a soul to catch them
And later tonight I will go home with nobody and nobody will come home with me

Thank you for so patiently listening.
I hope you all find yourselves before someone else does.


The author's comments:
You are not alone.

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