they say that sadness should fill you with pain.
but I just feel

empty.

if I had tears left I'd cry

but I'm saving those tears to fill a tub and drown myself in it

and the screams and the cries of the poor and oppressed,

are just a sign of luck.

because those who have the energy to get up and whine,

have the energy to

turn it all

around.

i can't remember how to feel

because the constant shots of pain have made me

n u m b

it's simple to ask optimism of someone

but tell me

where's the bright side

of wanting to shatter the

mirror

because it shows the smile

of your

outsides

but not the inner black hole that's deprived the virginity of your


?? p l e a s u r e ??

and I miss crying

because it waters your heart

it feeds your

emotions

but I have no emotions

because I am

empty.

I am empty

and I am

n u m b

why can't I feel anymore

sometimes I wish to be a

thumb print

because then

I could be


unique.

please answer

where is the motivation when I can't even get out

of bed

I used to want to scream into a pillow until I

suffocated

but even now that feels like

too

much.

too much energy

too much time

I guess economics and pain have something in


common

like inflation

because I've screamed so much

that my screams have lost their

value.

and I can't remember how to feel

because

these constant shots of pain have made me

n u m b

once when I was little

I fell off my bike.

I cried and my doctor said

it's better to feel pain than to feel nothing

at



all.

I didn't know what he meant

until

now

because now I'd sell my soul

for a simple taste

whether it's of sadness or of

happiness

I'd trade for it all that I

have

though that isn't much.

and

!!!!please answer me!!

These constant shots of pain have made me

feel


n u m b

and I wish I could cry

I wish I could cry!

i wish I could cry.

I'm crying