Sitting crying releasing my pain
Containing the psycho but going insane
You never quit before you try
I wanted you to see me cry
But everything seemed to fade away
We even hung out on that day
I didn’t feel hurt I didn’t feel sad
But I knew that you were feeling bad
Tried to keep calm and keep the smile
I would get you back it would just take awhile
Playing Magic to keep me distracted
Trying to forget about how I acted
Mom always said acting like nothing’s wrong is the best thing to do
It’s the best revenge and that was true
You couldn’t leave
You were Adam and I was Eve
Zoning out this isn’t me
Feel so lost but yet so free
Zone back in and there’s your smile
Want to scream but that’s not my style
Hands are shaking heart is numb
There you sit as you hum
Tapping my toes panicking silently
Flashbacks of you acting violently
You grab my hand and call me honey
I scrunch up my nose like a bunny
You lean in and kiss my lips
I feel your hands on my hips
Getting nervous getting shaky
Getting flashbacks please save me
I push away and pull to hug you
Just save me now just get it through
Bite my lip and breathe in fast
I thought the last one was my last