Addict

February 25, 2013
By Anonymous

I cannot stop.
Cannot stop the burning desire
As it climbs up my soul
Like ivy upon the sideboards
Of a house long abandoned.

I never wanted to be this girl.
This girl with no control,
Drowning in a river of self-imprisonment,
Simultaneously losing hope and ambition,
Giving up and giving in to the bottle.

This girl is not me.
Not me, no,
Yet as her knees give out it is my cheek
That slams against the cold, hard porcelain
Of the rest stop toilet.

I desperately search –
Search for a way out of this head
That strangles my very existence,
Shaking and shivering my bones
For a drop of liquid destruction.

Standing in the mirror I watch –
Watch myself shatter like a window
In the moment it gets smashed by a rock.
I cup my hands and splash my face with water,
But nothing can wash away the shame.

The mind is a poison,
A poison so strong it will paralyze
Your will to thrive,
Like the death blow
Of a black widow’s bite.

And I can’t be sure anymore -
Can’t be sure that I am alive.
The only thing I feel
Is the clench of fatal addiction
Consuming my power to be.



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on Mar. 4 2013 at 11:51 pm
Aeliss-Novak-the-Zombie-Space-Pirate BRONZE, That Place With All The Trees And Stuff, Oregon
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Favorite Quote:
Impossible is not a word, just a reason not to try.~Kutless

I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy, I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I'm going to smile.~Anonymous

*blink* O_O *blink* *snaps out of it and stuffs Amazing Poem of Awesomeness into favorites*

on Mar. 4 2013 at 4:27 pm
Rebel21 PLATINUM, St. Catharines, Other
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Favorite Quote:
Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame,
Where there is a flame someone's bound to get burned.
Just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die,
You've got to get up and try.

Wowwwwwwww.... This is the best poem I have read so far on teenink. Woooooowewwwwe......

on Mar. 3 2013 at 9:42 pm
nocontrol BRONZE, West Hartford, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
"It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you, Hazel Grace." - John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

Wow, this is incredible. Gave me chills. Written with such ferocious passion and emotions. Wonderful job!! 

on Mar. 3 2013 at 11:55 am
thatunknownthing DIAMOND, Dubai, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift; that's why they call it the present"

dark, and so passionately written. incredible comparisons, I admire your writing!

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on Mar. 3 2013 at 11:36 am
SuzieQ777 GOLD, Franklin, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"La Vida Es Bella"
-Me

Its like an internal conflict, and i like that because everyone has gone thru things internally and want to be better but not sure how. So I really enjoyed this.


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