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He Is A Drug
How do I stop this?
It is not only air that is expelled from my lungs when I exhale,
but lies.
The smell of desperation
l i n g e r s
on my breath,
pungent to those near me.
I myself am not a lie,
but I do things that make me
so awful,
so unforgivable.
Some days,
I want to break my own neck.
Everything swims in my addict’s brain;
mellow, meaningless thoughts
flood my mind.
I am not smart anymore.
It is horror that surrounds me, yet I am not afraid.
I’ve been partnered with a criminal.
Even when he is not with me, I can feel him
at the back of my head,
urging me to keep him company.
He is my ghost, never friendly but always reliable.
Sometimes I don’t want to be near him,
don’t want to see
or hear him,
But I do.
And I can’t help myself.
My days sink into spirals,
streaming
downhill
like rain off a rusted roof.
Maybe my life is one big spiral: never-ending.
The clouds above me welcome my euphoric presence;
I am sailing the ship of my mind through heavy winds.
He influences my every move, as if I am merely his puppet.
He pulls my strings, FORCING me to act as he wishes.
I am many things, but I am not strong.
I cannot loosen his strangling grasp,
even though I am
choking,
drowning
under his sea of abuse.
He was
beautiful at first,
but now
his face pains me.
And yet,
I
can’t
take
my
mind
off
him.
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