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About a Girl

February 3, 2013
By rachelcritic SILVER, Chicago, Illinois
rachelcritic SILVER, Chicago, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
"Don't ever tell anyone anything.If you do, you start missing everybody- Catcher in the Rye


Don't listen to those fools,girl.
They don't know what they're talking about.
You say I'm immature?
How can you be so sure when you barely know me?
If you knew me a little longer you'd realize I'm as honest as can be. So don't listen to them fools,girl.
They got nothin' on us. They claim that it's just a
sisterhood,but who are you gonna trust? As long as we're together girl,nothing can touch us.
We're in our own safe little bubble of happiness that
will never be popped open as long as we believe. Oh,what wonders we could achieve! But girl,you need to promise me one thing. You need to stand by me. I know I'm a bitter scrooge that has seen better days. But don't you realize that you hold the key? Indeed,you're my salvation,you're everything I want in a woman. You are the key to my survival when it's all said and done. I need you. I will always need you. So don't turn away. I know I'm quite the fright to look at,but don't go away. I don't like saying this to people often but I love you.I hope you feel the same way too,because I'm just a miserable old fool like Scrooge himself. I think I need to get help for this because nothing's working. Everywhere I go I share this problem and it is to their mocking. I can't stand the pain anymore. Please,won't you write me back or will I be lonely forevermore? Of course I could take the easy way,but my dear, I cannot get over my infatuation with you. You and I share a complicated relationship,but there's nothing I won't do to try to make it easier for you. Yes,I have my limits, but I wish I could stone myself to death for not being able to provide you with certain things. I love you girl,but you break my heart. I want to provide for you but I can't and my heart stings. In fact,every part of me stings,including the tears on my face. Please don't grimace when you see this letter, because I'd like to make you feel better about yourself knowing that there is a soul who cares, though I wish she could be perfect and grant you everything.










Love,









Rachel


The author's comments:
I realize I'm not the perfect lover,even though I'm very generous, and put loved ones first.I'd like to give my next girlfriend everything she needs but I'm scared deep down inside,that I won't be good enough for her,and I won't be able to provide for her and I'll lose her. Just like how I lost my other girlfriends. I hope that I'll be able to remind her everyday that she is beautiful and that I'm very happy that I'm with her. I also hope she will share those same feelings towards me. That's only what I can hope for though. My previous girlfriends treated me horribly and I felt like I would've much rather been beaten to death,then to have to endure that kind of pain which lasts for years. I'm terribly frightened of my next relationship. I almost want to be alone,but deep down,I'm very lonely. I'm really scared to open up to her because I feel she's just going to be disgusted with me and throw me out like I'm trash or something.I really don't mean to offend them,I don't know why they would want to treat me like that except for the power aspect. But who knows? And who really cares?

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