To My Regrets

The memories you tried not to forget.
The promises you wished you'd kept.
The words unsaid.
The blood you've bled.
The thoughts that leap inside your head
It's mystifying
Stupefying
I feel like crying
When I think of that darkness lurking
Always irking
With a word of doubt
The pool of things that should have been
Is over flowing,
Caving in
I want to dive into those lies
Never to return again
That's what I deserve?
What I've been waiting for, trying to curb
That feeling of wretchedness
Darkness within
With the secrets I'm keeping, I've got to give in.
Falling over "If only I had…"
Spiraling past "If I could take it back…"
I'm buried deep in who I am.
Something alien, dim, and oh so sad