Lost, Lonely, and Left!

I lay here in the silence, and let my mind wonder. 
I need proper guidance, but all I do is ponder.
Where have the years gone, and when all weren't so cruel?
The world is now a con, but not all are in a duel.

Everyone has me convinced, and no one stands by me.
Next I'll be in Providence, then maybe everyone will see.
I am lost and confused, but no one seems to care.
Lately I've been verbally abused, that is something I cannot bare.

Harsh words have been thrown, and hopes and dreams shattered.
My heart not fully sewn, because it has been beaten and battered.
The hopes of being thin, and the dreams of becoming a star.
I feel as if I've been poked by a pin, and left with a massive scar.

No one understands, and they won't even try.
Maybe I need their hands, but away from them I'll have to be pried.
Look around what do you see, a lot of hurt and a lot of pain.
These silent tears have yet to be seen, only because I have nothing left to gain.