Do you ever wonder if you are being all that you can be, if you are changing your story or just playing a part. A few years ago I made a promise, a promise to change the story that had been written for me. I wouldn't let my past define my future. But, what is the future, to me it's pain and heartache in front of me never going away. The future is always there mocking me telling me will never be where I want to be, I'm just stuck here and I'm never getting out. I use to dream about the future like it was some magical place that I someday would conquer. But here I am today, that future I used to think of is just another reminder of that promise I made to myself. That promise that I know I can never keep, I wonder everyday is this really it for me. But it true I'm stuck here and I can never get out.