Alopicia Totalis

December 14, 2012
I'm different.
For a few reasons actually,
I'm more mature for my age..
I'm more insecure than any other person
But most importantly I have no hair
I get targeted and left alone in despair.
Some of you may not know what this is so let me inform you:
Alopecia Total-is is when you lose your hair; eyebrows, eyelashes, hair on your head, etc.
Now before you all judge:
To Girls, imagine yourself what you would do with no hair.
As if you woke up one morning without hair.
Well, that's exactly how it is for me everyday.
I hate when girls say they hate their hair..
They wouldn't understand how quickly I would take it from them.
I see with girls with gorgeous locks
Right then my mind is blocked.
So insecure
Yet nobody to let out to.
People say I'm brave for doing this
Then why don't I feel it?
When I look at myself,
I see myself as an outcast
People judge when they don't understand..
People tell me all the time,
"At least I have hair.."
It hurts.
What makes it even more weird is that i run my long fingers through silky hair of a stranger.
I can't walk out the door bald..
I hate the looks, the eyes bulging with stares.
People make me feel like I'm from a zoo.
Guys never like me for me..
I'm weird, strange; nova.
It is so hard for me to go to High School,
or even anywhere in public..
I would never grant this on any other person, for it brings emotional pain which i wouldn't cast on the person who I may not get along with the best.
One of the motto's that keep me going is:
NEVER SAY NEVER. -Justin Bieber<3

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Wings10FeetTall said...
Aug. 23, 2013 at 3:18 pm
This is amazing, BILAFS! You're one of the best poets I've ever read. And I know that you're beautiful. :)
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 25, 2013 at 4:09 pm
That was such a sweet comment, and it literally made my day! :') Thank you soo much! It means the world to me, it really does. I am so glad I could get this out to more people to see. Would you mind refrencing others to it?
Wings10FeetTall replied...
Aug. 25, 2013 at 9:20 pm
Not in the slightest.
Wings10FeetTall replied...
Aug. 25, 2013 at 9:21 pm
Not a problem.
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 26, 2013 at 11:50 am
Thank you so much! It means a lot to me. (:
Wings10FeetTall replied...
Aug. 26, 2013 at 6:39 pm
Sure. :) Hey, I've got a q couple of questions about this, if you don't mind.
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 27, 2013 at 1:56 pm
Not at all! Ask away. :)
Wings10FeetTall replied...
Aug. 27, 2013 at 6:58 pm
Okay. So, does the Alopicia Totalis only affect girls? Also, does all of your hair fall out at once, or will it come out in clumps over time the way it does for cancer paniets? And, finally, is it just the hair on your head or also the hair on the rest of your body?
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 28, 2013 at 3:52 pm
Hair on your head, eyebrows, etc. Not pubes.. lol. It comes out in clumps, and it affects both males and females
Wings10FeetTall replied...
Aug. 28, 2013 at 7:06 pm
Oh, okay. Thanks!
Wings10FeetTall replied...
Aug. 28, 2013 at 7:32 pm
Hey, do you ever go into the General Chat?
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 29, 2013 at 3:17 pm
I do, but not that often.
Wings10FeetTall replied...
Aug. 29, 2013 at 3:51 pm
Aw, dang. :( I was hoping to talk to you live. What about the TI forums?
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 29, 2013 at 6:31 pm
Tell me when you are on and hopefully I can get on in time to talk to you live. If you have any further questions, just ask away!(: Don't be shy!!
Truth_and_Love said...
Aug. 14, 2013 at 7:09 pm
This is beautiful! You are beautiful! This is a beautiful piece! I saw this in the chat, and you should be proud! This piece is so touching. I feel for you, girl. Keep up the writing. 
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 14, 2013 at 8:25 pm
This really means the world to me. I love getting comments like this. *_* <33 Thank you so much! <3 :")
the-earth-between-our-toes This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 12, 2013 at 10:02 am
This gives a really good message out. You should be proud
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 12, 2013 at 10:08 am
I should be proud? :")
WhenYouCantSleepAtNight said...
Aug. 9, 2013 at 8:00 pm
I love it. Flat out. ;D 
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight replied...
Aug. 10, 2013 at 6:28 pm
Awwww really? <33 Thank you so much! :")
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