I'm back here again.
This time with a new insult
To belittle myself with.
I'm back here again.
I'll try and remember all of the times
I’ve been brought here by labels
That I thrust upon my
Dumb,
Short,
Ugly,
Insufficient,
Incapable,
Embarrassing,
Confused,
Helpless,
Foolish,
Anxious,
Nerdy,
Weird,
Awkward,
Socially Incapable,
Immature,
Lazy,
Disabled,
Failure of a person.
And those are just a few
Because, like everything else about me
My memory is inadequate as well.
I'm back here again.
I could try and describe this place, this
Hopeless,
Sad,
Miserable,
Anxious,
Terrifying place.
But then again I don't think I’d be able to
Because I’m just too
Stupid.
I'm back here again.
Its as if I hit another one of my limits at every turn.
The walls of my life are encroaching around me
Slowly consuming any potential that I didn't have to begin with.
I’m back here again.
A tear might run down my cheek this time
But that would just make me more of a wuss.
Because guys don't cry,
Great. I’ve even failed at something that’s impossible to fail at.
I’m back here again.
But deeper now.
I’m trying to think and my mind is falling deeper into the crevice of sadness.
The thick covers of my bed won't even console my worthless heart.
I shouldn't even need consoling in the first place.
What a failure I am.
Will this ever change?
Will I ever be a
Real person. Someone who is considered a normal individual in our society.
Do I even want to be?
Stupid society, I hate people.
I’m back here again.
Great. I can’t even write a short poem.
And when will my failure of a self
Ever see
That you're just you,
And I’m just...
Me.