Truly Me

December 2, 2012
By thewriterajp BRONZE, Sioux City, Iowa
thewriterajp BRONZE, Sioux City, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
"The greatest people in history had to first overcome themselves."


When I was younger,
I never thought I would be the one to say,
hey, yeah, I guess I live under the umbrella term of gay.

Then again, the term I use these days,
is "not straight",
I have trouble recognizing myself,
for who I really am.

In the fourth grade,
I had my first big crush,
on a boy - just like everyone else.
But my crushes always faded,
and in middle school,
I never quite made it,
to the boy-crazed stage.

It felt like something was wrong with me,
and then at age fourteen,
I began to have these feelings,
towards somebody,
that wasn't of the male variety.

Religion told me this wasn't supposed to be,
that it was all just make-believe,
some ignorant choice,
that made me a rebel
and it'll land me in hell.

I fought it as best I could,
prayed that these feelings would be as they should,
but the more I tried,
the more I felt dead inside.

It got worse,
with each passing year,
it's been almost three now,
and I finally beginning to grasp that this is me.

I did cry,
and force myself to lie,
just to cover up the fact that I'm bi.

Now, I'm living in this awkward life,
stuck between two minds,
the one were everything is fine,
and everyone is my friend.
Then there is the one,
hiding in a closet in my imaginary room,
telling myself it's only time before this is through,
and I can be who I truly am.
It's just hard when I know,
no one is really going to understand,
how a Christian girl was dealt this hand.



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on Jan. 14 2013 at 8:28 pm
thewriterajp BRONZE, Sioux City, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
"The greatest people in history had to first overcome themselves."

Thank you very much, Puzzle! :) I try to pace my poems, especially the more emotional ones so that the climax is the POW it should be. And, you yourself are very talented writer, so I take your compliment with great pleasure! :)

on Jan. 13 2013 at 9:41 pm
Puzzle PLATINUM, Orem, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
When life gives you lemons,
Eat them.
They do not taste that bad.

Life is like autumn.
Stop to crunch the pesky leaves.

Love is... let me think...

Don't judge a book by its cover.

Poetry is a way to put words to things that are unexplainable.

I do very much like this. :) I can see your experience in writing, which surpasses mine, and I am impressed with your word choice! Keep it up. :) I also admire how you build up to the climax, not puncture it at the doorway. :)  


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