The Hole in my Heart

October 24, 2012
I feel so alone,
No one here knows
That my mother is dead
My future; unknown.

I haven’t told anyone-
I don’t have the strength
To remain strong all over
To not tip over the brink.

The Mask of Happiness
Carves marks in my face-
Yet I continue to wear it,
Keep my smile in place.

I have to be strong,
It is expected;
Though this fact is unspoken,
I must remain unaffected.

This is a lie,
And I am the liar.
I won’t allow myself tears,
Though my face is on fire.

Pain comes in waves,
Crash against me like the sea,
I am a rock that’s eroding,
That will soon cease to be.

I long for this moment,
For my existence to fade,
For it will mark the end
Of my strained silent charade.

However, I know,
My time isn’t close to done-
The tide is drawing back
Salty spray poking fun.

Perhaps I will allow
Sadness to reign
If only for a moment;
Leak some of the pain.

No one here knows
Of the hole in my heart.
Yet despite the sharp pain;
I shall not fall apart.

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olican16 said...
Mar. 22, 2013 at 10:53 am
Wow... I'm at a total loss for words right now. The wording of this is absolutely perfect. You're such an amazing writer and I'm so impressed at the emotion that flows out of this poem. I wish I had the writing abilities you do, becuase this is so amazing. I'm still sitting here with my mouth wide open in awe. The part about an eroding rock is my favorite part. I've never thought of it that way until now. That's abosutely beautiful. I love the way you write but more than ... (more »)
Alcanno This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Apr. 24, 2013 at 8:48 pm
Thanks Olivia <3 I'm glad it touched you... I love you too!!
Apollo77 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Feb. 28, 2013 at 6:04 pm
the emotion is very raw, i see, and i like that. what I don't like id how short the lines are. not that i would make them longer or that it's a bad thing, I just think that it would be more effective for your style with long lines. anyway, i like most of the rhymes, which is good because normally i hate rhymes, but i don't understand the stanza that ends n 'my face is on fire'. I don't think this is an effective word choice and it kind of confuses me. this is going to sound harsh because all of ... (more »)
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