The feeling of feeling nothing at all,
has consumed and taken over my body.

Like when the dentist numbed my mouth
to fill cavities that resided from too much
Sour Patch Kids and Cherry Coke.

I observed his wrinkly hands as he pushed up
the black thick framed glasses from the tip of his nose,
and put that sharp metal tool in my mouth,
But I felt nothing.

I noticed the blood oozing from my gums,
and captured the faint taste of salt on my tongue
The dentist grabbed a tissue to hinder the bleeding,
But I felt nothing.

And then I found myself questioning,
if I would rather deal with the feeling of pain,
or with the feeling of feeling nothing at all.

And weeks after my trip to the dentist,
(I gave up Sour Patch Kids and Cherry Coke)
I figured out the answer to my question:
Being numb, paralyzed by blank emotions,
is more painful than the cavities in life.