feels like I’m drowning
air is hard and heavy
and the whole world is spinning
so so fast and taunting,
"come on, keep up! keep up!
run faster!"
and i never get a second to sit and breathe,
which wouldn’t matter
because now my legs are sore
and my body is sore
and my eyes are coon-colored
I am trying
but the mirror is laughing
and the kids are laughing
and the whole world is laughing
or there’s silence
everyone and everything is a mirror
and i don’t like what i’m seeing
and i want to change it so badly,
but the sea just pulls me back out again
as soon as i stand up