DeniaL

I want denial
I NeeD denial
Save me.

I want it all
To stop spinning
Occurring
Too
QuicK
4 human health
Never
Stops
Leaping and jerking
Around the
ClocK


Roller Coaster in my heart
Pounding in my
Chest
Too much
I want to puke
My
Life
OuT

When did I become
This person
Does not fit
Does not seem
ReaL

This is crazy
I do not want this
Where did it
Come from
This
Is
Not
Me

I need to
Flee
Get away
To a
Giggly perception
Where
Music dances
And
All is swell

Too much
Sorrow
In my soul
Too much
Pain
From
The
Memories

From me-
The old
The real
I messed up
But when i
Disappear
inTO myself
I am good
Life is good

Only because
I can ForgeT
Only because
I can
Relax_x_x_x

All you hear
Are the notes
All you see
Are the beats
And
Bouncing
Breasts
With dancing feet

When I run
I can ForgeT
I can stop
Sweating
From
Nervousness
About me

The past
The pain
Flies away
And I hope
That
The morning
Will be
JollY

In the morning-
When the SuN
Comes
Out

But
In the morning
It is not.
There are
No more
Illusions
Or funk
Just sadness

Because the past
Still
Happened
I messed up
I hate this
I want to
Be
Happy and
Calm and
Carefree

I want denial
I NeeD denial
Save me.