My life has always consisted of overachieving. Its always one step ahead for me. Things have to always go according to plan, regardless of whether or not I even want them to work out. And as I down today, I thought to myself, "Damn, what exactly am I trying to become?" I know I cannot ever be the person some want me to become; its just not me, and for so long I've kept that realization hidden in the back of my head. But now its come out its hibernation and its here to stay: I am putting myself up for failure. I am indeed a toy solider, stuck in this moment.